Tonight (10/14/20), I had an overwhelming feeling of nostalgia. See, I used to be the person who would go on late night drives to the beach or a park. Simply because I had an urge for adventure and I was willing to give in. 

I would jump knowing well that the consequences could be too much for me. Yet I did it anyway. 

Who cares if I lost a night of sleep! I got to see the sunrise! 

Who cares the drive was 5 hours long! These dumplings were worth it! 

Except for tonight, that itch of adventure couldn’t be scratched. 

I’m too scared of losing sleep. I have no one to go with. What if someone attacks me. All these thoughts hold me back. 

I actually looked through my messages and couldn’t find a single person who’d be willing to go for an adventure tonight. 

My friends have work! They have things they have to prioritize. 

I mean, where would we go? Where would * I* go? 

The drive to the beach wouldn’t be as exciting alone. The forest? Are there still fires? 

There aren’t even any late-night cafés open for a cup of coffee or tea! 

Last resort would be a diner. Yet those are closed too. 

I guess I’m too old for these adventures. 

Not to mention how this pandemic has affected all the cafes, diners, and parks. 

I need to check out some spots I can hit up when I feel this urge for adventure. To at least escape for an hour or two. 

It’s easier when you’re younger because you don’t really have responsibilities to keep track of. The possibilities are endless! 

I’d also have to find a friend who’s willing to sacrifice a couple of hours of their sleep to hangout. I feel like the best conversations happen at night. When the sky is calm and you can feel the silence of the city. 

I remember going to the local Denny’s with my friend after work to drink a cup of hot chocolate. There’s usually just a few tables being occupied. So we could talk about anything knowing we were safe. 

Is Denny’s even open 24 hours anymore?! 

Well friends, those are my thoughts. I want and I NEED to find a way to express this urge to explore. What spontaneous thing do you want to do? Travel? Food?

L0ve,

Not Bobby